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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 0:27:34 GMT -5
What a Godawful night this had turned out to be. Emily felt mentally exhausted, but knew she couldn't sleep it off. It had been normal for the most part, besides her lapse in judgement that caused a practical make-out session with a stranger, and then said stranger, who had turned out to be quite the flirt, had acted like he had done nothing wrong.
God, Emily huffed as she exited the tent, deciding to trust her instincts one last time and follows Dimitri. I swear this is your last chance, and then I'm following logic strictly! she threatened the part of her that was pure instinct, hoping Esme was following as well.
Once she saw Dimitri stop, and stopped as well, avoiding his gaze out of what seemed to be anger. But really, she didn't want either of them to see the tears forming in her eyes. Hopefully she could avoid looking up until they dried up.
And she sure as hell wasn't going to be the first one to speak. Dimitri owed her and Esme that much.
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Post by angelofmusic1992 on Dec 30, 2011 0:48:30 GMT -5
It seemed that Emily would back Esme up. At least, that's how she perceived it. Although Emily looked like she was about to slap Dimitri silly. Esme wasn't sure if she wanted to hit him. She was more confused than anything else. How exactly did he see her? He was a flirt, yet their chat had gotten quite personal. He had shared information that hadn't been shared with anybody else. Or, so he claimed. She wondered if he told every girl that, so she would feel special.
The last thing Esme wanted was for blood to be shed. Facilier didn't mind little spats between circus members. After all, not everybody was going to get along. But physical fights he wasn't very fond of, for if someone got hurt too badly, then they couldn't perform. She just sighed, standing next to Emily with Dimitri across from them. No doubt he felt very intimidated.
"So...you said you wanted to talk to us," she said, since it looked like nobody else was willing to speak first. "Did...you have something specific in mind?" Okay, so maybe it wasn't the most eloquent thing she had ever said, but at least the question was in the air now.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 1:01:56 GMT -5
Dimitri sighed heavily as he sat there, covering his face. He had to make sure he did this right. He didn't want to hurt either of them. He couldn't. He cared about them both. But, he knew exactly what to say.
"Please...just listen for a minute, alright?" He mumbled, slowly moving his hand away from his face. He crossed his arms over his knees before he finally met Emily's eyes. "Please don't cry...I feel bad about this without the tears," He pleaded, his gray eyes begging. "I didn't use you, and I know you're thinking I did. Emily, you're amazing -- I may be a lot of things, but I don't lie. I wanted to make sure you know just how amazing you were, and that happened to include my idea to let you feel again. And then I learned about the whole full moon thing through the touching and I felt stupid, so I just kept going," He admitted sheepishly. "But, I'm sorry If I led you on...I didn't mean to. I don't fall in love, and I don't date anyone," He said, half almost too quiet for anyone to hear.
"Emily, you're one of the sweetest and most interesting people I've ever met...please don't let my idiocy make you hate me...." He pleaded, then shifted his eyes towards Esme. "Could you..." He swallowed roughly, obviously have a difficult time asking his next question. "Could you t-tell her about why I won't date?" He whispered, looking away from her in his own shame for not being able to talk about it to just anyone. He laid back on the grass and stared blankly up at the sky.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 1:12:48 GMT -5
Emily looked to Dimitri after a few moments, and nodded at his request to listen. Her eyes slowly softened as his explanation went on, going from hurt-filled and confused, to understanding-- and still confused. And after he was finished, she looked expectantly to Esme, wanting the entire story before she said a word.
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Post by angelofmusic1992 on Dec 30, 2011 1:21:05 GMT -5
Esme bit her lip as she listened to Dimitri, though she did glance at Emily out of the corner of her eye every so often. So, it looked like Dimitri had flirted with Emily as well, and even more. She wasn't sure how exactly far they went, but they obviously went far enough to have Emily upset with him. Esme wondered if Dimitri was often in this predicament often: apologizing to girls he had made out with because they got their feelings hurt. It wasn't usually what play-boys did.
She gave Dimitri an incredulous look at his request. He wanted her to explain his past? She sighed as she brushed her hair behind her shoulder. It looked like she would have to do it. It was obviously something he had a hard time saying. And yet he had said it not long after they had met. What did that mean?
"He had a child-hood friend, somebody he grew up with his whole life," she quietly explained. "Eventually, he came to love her. When they were old enough, it was announced that they had an arranged marriage between them. But even though he loved her, she didn't love him. So...he refused to marry her." She swallowed, hoping that she had remembered everything. She sometimes had a hard time remembering what exactly had happened that night.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 1:28:17 GMT -5
Dimitri continued to stare up at the sky, listening silently to the way Esmeralda explained his story. He nodded when she finished and sighed slightly.
"Both of you should know I don't tell just anyone about myself, alright? And, I don't want anyone else to know, If you don't mind," He said quietly, stealing a quick glance towards Esme at the statement. He'd actually told her. She would figure that meant something. But, did it? Maybe he'd just let it slip....
It's pretty sad when you don't even know what you're thinking, dude.
And now he was talking to himself. Wonderful. He bit his lip and sat up finally. "Emily...do you understand?" He asked, hoping she would. "It was all to show you I gave a damn, and sure, I probably could have chosen a route that didn't involve kissing you, but I got carried away," He admitted, pursing his lips.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 2:09:45 GMT -5
As Emily listened, she slowly calmed herself down. She looked from Esme back to Dimitri, her eyes softening.
"Yes, I... I understand," she replied. She sat down next to him, softly brushing a stray, misplaced lock of hair from his forehead with her good arm. "But I want you to understand, as well..." Emily sighed, feeling her living form flicker into view before dispersing again. "It's not like I expected you to really have feelings for me," she began, pulling her knees to her chest. "I just-- I've existed for so long, used to the inability to physically feel, besides on the full moon... And then, it seemed the moment you confided a trait in common that we had, our forms, that is... my wall crumbled."
Emily's lip quivered at a memory, and she closed her eyes.
"I'm going to trust you two with my past, now," she said, glancing at the both of them. "About a year ago, my parents forced me into a marriage with an old man. It lasted maybe two, three weeks, until he decided my family's money was better suited to him than I was."
Emily seemed to tremble, and her eyebrows furrowed.
"He... took advantage of me one last time," she continued, letting her knees fall downwards a bit to reveal her exposed ribs, "before running me through right here."
She gulped, looking intently at the ground.
"And then I woke up a few months later, in my own grave, to discover I had somehow become a zombie. And by then, I just wanted to know that something-- anything-- hadn't changed. My best friend, Victor, he... he ran at the sight of me. I mean, I understand why, but... It still hurt. And then I found out my husband was about to marry another girl, no doubt to deal her the same cards of fate."
Emily felt a tear slip down her cheek, and she placed her head between her knees.
"I had nothing left to lose... And I wanted to make sure he felt my pain... I wanted to make sure he never did that again. So, I... I killed him with the sword he killed me with."
Emily sighed, her shoulders hunching over.
"When you showed that affection, Dimitri... When you gave me my feelings back, it... It was different from what my powers gave me. And I liked it, and... It confused me. It made me feel human again after the inhuman things I did, and... I was angry at myself for letting you do it, I... I'm sorry," Emily said, refusing to look at either of them.
(( long post is loooong e.e sorry Dx ))
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 3:10:39 GMT -5
(( I hope you don't mind, Kat!))
Dimitri listened to her speak with careful ears. He didn't want to be too kind to her, but maybe he should...He wanted to be her friend, and friends were nice to each other, right?
"Hey," He mumbled when he saw the tears on her cheeks. He wrapped his arms around her, but found the position uncomfortable for himself quickly. He lifted her up and pulled her onto his lap, keeping his arms comfortingly around her.
"Listen to me, Emily...What you did...It's not bad, trust me," He mumbled, swallowing back a bit of guilt. That was another story. "He was a creep, and trust me, if you hadn't of killed him, I would'a," He said with a small smile, trying to make her feel better. "I'm not sorry for letting you feel again, though. I told you -- I don't regret it, even now. But, like I said, not kissing probably wouldn't have been the best choice," he sighed, resting his chin on her shoulder. "I don't know If I'm allowed to ask this of you...but, I want you to be in my life some how or another so that I can keep reminding you how amazing you are," He smiled before kissing the top of her head.
"Best friend. How's that sound, darlin'?" He smiled, turning her chin up to look at him with a gentle smile.
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Post by angelofmusic1992 on Dec 30, 2011 13:43:01 GMT -5
((No problem Records! )) Esme was quiet as Dimitri and Emily talked to each other. It looked like these two had more issues to work out than she did. She felt kind of awkward, listening to them. Something like this should have been just between them. She felt like an intruder. She wrapped her arms around herself and started tracing circles in the ground with her foot. When Emily began to explain her past however, she looked up, her green eyes a little wide. She figured that Emily had some kind of tragic past, she was a zombie after all, but she never imagined it as violent as that. No wonder the girl was so shy and hesitant to trust others. She had been betrayed herself, had had her friends run away, and had even killed someone. Esme didn't say anything, but she wondered if Emily would kill again if she got mad enough at somebody. She gave a small smile at what Dimitri said. At least he was still being nice to her, despite their rocky relationship. She hoped that Emily would be friends with him. She wondered if Dimitri would make the same offer to her. She didn't know.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 15:36:12 GMT -5
(( hey guys. sorry for randomly crashing out last night, records... xD ))
Emily felt like a child who had done something wrong and was not being punished, as she was cradled in Dimitri's arms. She listened to his kind words, feeling so undeserving of them...
And although she noticed that Esmeralda had become quiet, she couldn't say a word quite yet.
"...if you hadn't of killed him, I would'a."
Emily's eyes went wide, and she stared at Dimitri for a moment, before she shook her head slightly, a small smirk hidden by his shoulder.
"-- I don't regret it, even now," Dimitri said, and Emily gave a quiet sigh, before blinking as she noticed a movement on her shoulder. He had put his chin there.
"I don't know If I'm allowed to ask this of you...but, I want you to be in my life some how or another so that I can keep reminding you how amazing you are."
Is he serious? Even after all of the drama? He's... He's as stubborn as Clopin! Maybe even more! Emily thought, but couldn't bring herself to feel angry about it. It just meant that they cared. And then she blinked when she noticed his movements. Had he just kissed her head?
"Best friend. How's that sound, darlin'?" Dimitri tilted her up by her chin to look at him. She stared for a moment, before looking to Esmeralda.
The poor girl looked as if she felt she didn't belong, and Emily didn't want that.
"That sounds wonderful," Emily replied, her living form flickering once again, although for a much shorter time than the last, "but can you please promise not to push yourself if you ever decide to do that again?" she asked, looking back at him with a rather serious expression that read 'I will turn your world inside-out, upside-down and backwards if you weaken yourself that much again.'
"If you promise that, I think we can all be friends," she said, smiling slightly at Esme.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 30, 2011 18:47:19 GMT -5
Dimitri smiled a bit as she accepted his offer. He was glad to at least be able to fix something. However, her request made him make a face. "But, I like being able to do something right, and that includes helping you," he pouted a bit, brushing a hand along her arm. "But, I guess if it means getting to keep you, then I suppose I could refrain from being such a nice, humble man," he teased, smiling.
"Ezzy, c'mere," he pouted, patting the space beside him. "You look all awkward...oh wait, are you still afraid to be close to me?" he smirked slightly, his voice playful.
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Post by angelofmusic1992 on Dec 30, 2011 18:59:43 GMT -5
"Oh no, I just...I just didn't want to interrupt your...conversation," she said, rubbing her arm. She was glad that things were good between Dimitri and Emily now. She wanted things to go well for her zombie friend. The last thing she needed was for her to get sucked up into some drama.
"Well, you are kind of...unpredictable," she said. "I mean, who knows what's going in that head of yours?" She gave a little laugh. There was some hesitation in her, though. She still felt like this was more Emily's moment than hers. She just kinda came along for moral support and to make sure Dimitri didn't try anything funny. Although now that it seemed like everything was cool, she wasn't sure what to say. She still felt some insecurity about her whole situation with Dimitri, but Emily looked pretty happy right now. She didn't want to ruin the moment with the silly things she was feeling right now.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 31, 2011 3:21:04 GMT -5
"I guess if it means getting to keep you, then I suppose I could refrain from being such a nice, humble man."
Emily rolled her eyes with a slight smirk. She completely ignored the part about him getting to "keep" her, not really wanting to react, before nudging him ever-so-slightly.
"I never said you couldn't do it," she replied, "just... don't use up so much of your energy like you did tonight."
Christ, did I just give him more opportunities to flirt? she thought, her face unchanging, despite her new worry. I shouldn't worry. He knows, now, not to go so far with me.
She was lost in her thoughts of the future, what this cirque held for her, as Dimitri and Esmeralda held their conversation. She still heard it, but she wasn't prying or eyeing. But, she eventually looked up to her, hearing a hesitation i her voice that was all too familiar.
"Are you sure you're... as alright as you're claiming?" she asked, not really knowing how to word her question. Her eyes flickered to Dimitri, and then she stood after being reminded that she had been in his lap basically the whole time. She dusted herself off, then smiled slightly at Esme. She had a feeling that the three of them now shared a strange bond after the incidents that had occurred. Of course, that could just be her hoping she made two friends instead of just one. But her smile remained. A rare occurrence.
Perhaps... it won't be as rare, now... she hoped.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 31, 2011 6:59:23 GMT -5
"I don't even know what's going on up here most of the time," he admitted with a chuckle. He ran a hand through his hair and watched as Enily got up. She didn't want him to...? Wait, was that an invite to keep flirting? Surely not.
"No worries, Em. I won't pursue you anymore. I know when I'm not wanted," he chuckled. Though, he knew that wasn't the case here. It was he who wanted girls who wouldn't mind his constant flirting and hook-ups. Emily obviously would. And, so would Esme. Great choices.
No. Emily was his friend. Esme was his friend, too. Both very beautiful, sweet, alluring friends...
He shook his head. God, he needed a lay. Anything to get this love crap off of his mind. And then, a cocky grin pulled up his lips. "So...I'm guessing both of you are virgins. Want to change that? Friendly basis of course - though, I'm sure Ezzy is too scared of the cooties." His voice was obviously joking, and by the grin on his lips, it was obvious he was kidding.
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Post by angelofmusic1992 on Dec 31, 2011 18:16:13 GMT -5
"Well...it's not like I...don't want a relationship," Esme said, trying to speak carefully. She didn't want any misinterpretations. "I mean, I guess it's something a lot of girls dream about. But...if I'm going to get involved with a guy, it'll be with someone that I can be friends with first, get to know, that sort of thing. I'm the kind of girl that...takes things slow." She bit her lip, no doubt portraying herself as the kind of girl that Dimitri would never go for. She didn't want to drive him away too much. She did want to be friends with him, despite this whole awkward situation. But she wanted to make sure that something like this didn't happen again.
She smirked, seeing that Dimitri was joking. "I'll change that when I'm good and ready," she said. "If you have any type of cooties, it'd probably from biting your thumb so much." She laughed. glad that this whole thing had turned out okay.
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